Well I've been on "anti gravity" medication for about a week now and I have to say, I'm pleasantly surprised by how effective it's been . It's definitely taking the edge off. I still miss my Dennis every minute of every day but at least I no longer sob incessantly. The medicine makes me feel disconnected and numb, which is exactly what I was hoping for.

BTW ~ For all those wondering, and for all those that have ALREADY inquired, I WILL NOT BE DATING AND I WILL NEVER MARRY AGAIN! You see (and I hope you do some day), if your ever lucky enough to meet and marry your SOUL MATE, there simply is NO OTHER human in the world for you. It goes without question. My friends that know Dennis and me, who know our love, well..... they already know I would never "move on" into a new relationship. There is no place to "move on" to. Most importantly, God knew that I would never marry again. And so it is that He purposefully placed Miss Ellie Grace in my arms, just before He called Dennis home. He knew that I would never love another man and my sweet and gentle saviour didn't want me to be alone. THIS is the single most incredible gift He could have given me!

So please remember, my husband is in Heaven and I am still married. It's simply that our season on earth together, is over. But together again we will be one day!