Reminders to hang on, stay strong, help is on the way.....

In the details.....

In the details is where I long to be confused.  Wrapped in delirium that muffles the sounds of that day, that phone call... that moment.

 Just after the dust settled from my own little Armageddon, I tried to write down the details, but couldn't. And today I still can't, won't. The panic of that day, etched permanently into the recesses of my shattered heart, never to be recounted.

No plans to move forward.  Stuck in the here and now. Lost in the reality of  unfathomable loss.

So as the world races by, I stand still.  Waiting, hoping,  longing for HIS promise.

No inspirational "from the ashes" story. Just the same broken record of  sadness I have babbled on about for over two years now.  The good news is that the kids remain mostly oblivious to my utter disdain for the story of "me". They are all thriving and amaze me daily with their resilience. They are my sustenance. Little reminders that I'm still loved and HE still holds all that is and yet to be.